Wonder..

I wonder why I have not been updating my blog.
Maybe my brain is dying.
Maybe I can't think of anything to write.
Or maybe I'm just too lazy!
Aha! I'll go with the final one..

Challenge

Life is a challenge,
It can be difficult at times,
Or it is always difficult,
I have to be strong to accept changes,
I must be willing to transform,
But living in this place,
Is a great big challenge for me,
Everything is new,
The people, the environment, the life here,
Is different and unique,
God, please guide me through,
I need Your guidance and support.

Beautiful Portsmouth!

Portsmouth is just lovely and the people over here are so warm. People over here are polite, friendly and sensitive. I like the nurse in the Nuffield Surgery. She is just soooo nice.. I'm beginning to like this place and the people in Portsmouth.

Happy

I'm so glad that the visa is almost done now. Thank God. But the journey back home was very tiring. For one moment, I almost told myself not to board the train anymore. The train was cancelled twice, they changed the platform, and I was pushed to the side by the "bigger" adults. I know that everyone is rushing to go back and everyone wants a place in the bus. But some were barbaric by pushing the children and the disabled. There was no announcement being made on the train, so I had to ask people when they get down, "excuse me, may I know which station is this?" Some were very nice to answer politely. I met two mute boys on the train who were struggling. Firstly, their hearing aids fell off due to the pushing and grabbing and shoving. Secondly, they don't know which station is which because there were no announcements being made. After communicating with each other in sign language, one of the boys, patted my shoulder and I turned. He texted and showed me his mobile phone, "sorry, tapi boleh saya tahu ini station apa?" I took out mine and texted "ini station Petaling kalau tak silap" I wasn't very sure either, so I signalled him to wait and asked another girl standing in front of me. She said it was Petaling after all. I texted him, "yes" Then he texted saying that both of them have to go to their school in Shah Alam and asked me where will I be getting down. I said in Klang and he replied "oh, itu lagi jauh" I said yes. The train was so full and there were all kinds of odour and I was sweaty, sticky and feeling so uncomfortable. When the train reached Shah Alam station, the two Chinese boys left with a big smile and showed their mobile phone, "thank you so much, couldn't have made it to school without you, god bless you" I quickly took mine and texted "welcome" They waved and left. Although it was a terrible experience, I was happy to have helped someone after all. Of course, my dad gave me a lecture and told me to board the train earlier next time. As usual, I said "OK, I'm sorry and thanks for picking me up" He was nice enough to pick me up in the Klang station, or I have to walk further and wait for ages for the Bukit Tinggi bus and walk back home.

God

He guides and makes us stronger.
He strengthens and teaches.
Thank you, God, for guiding.

God

He tests so much.

Government Hospital

I was told that they won't do some of the blood tests (Hep. B), so I did it in a private clinic and brought the results to be endorsed by the "certified physician" in a government hospital. When I went today, they told me to come after 2 WEEKS!! Just to see the doctor and get the medical check-up done, I have to wait for another 2 weeks.. The reason? My urine test is not done yet. I will have to wait for another 2 weeks just to get the results IF I do my urine test in the government hospital. That means? They are indirectly encouraging me to do the test elsewhere and get back to them just to endorse them. Why the hell they didn't tell me earlier? I could've done it together with my blood test the other day!!! I wasted my time and energy the whole day walking up and down the hospital. To make things worse, I need to go back to the hospital to do a test called the Mantoux test. And I have to go on a Friday because that's the ONLY day they do that test. Haihz....